I have taken extremely lean work the past 2 weeks by choice and hopefully stay like this for another month. Well despite being 'jobless', I still am super occupied and engaged in life. Have too much of shit to sort thru at home- paper work, years of piling documentation, taxes, legal all of that along with battling my fat which also piled on for years is now happening.
Good or bad- I am enjoying the phase and hope I get to do a few things off my bucket list.
Let's see.....
This time, somehow I was not in the right mood to really wish you and me a very happy birthday.
Hope this year brings in tonnes of strength, joy, health and wealth to propel us into a happier and peaceful world I say!
Happy Birthday.
Lot of things change.
The biggest change in my life (world) is the ability to let go and be OK with it. Ability to walk away and provide peace to my eco-system.
Both of them are important. One provides internal power and confidence that you can do whatever you want in life and not be worried about losing anymore. The second gives you immense satisfaction that you did the right thing by letting go and making the eco system more peaceful. Actually the second brings in a lot of mindspace and ability to think. Finally think without boundaries and be able to really figure what we want/need from life without life altering boundary conditions and limitations. The right word is perhaps abundance.
Yes- it gives immense head room to think in abundance. That's a very powerful thing.
You see, I generally write a post for the new year. About my hopes, what has been, and what could have been. And so on. :-)
This time, I lived it. And hence, didn't write much. 2025 is an interesting year. Maybe after decade and a half, I finally decided to snap out of miseries and comfort areas to become a better human being- for sure.
And I did. I went thru the entire grief cycle multiple times and lived long enough to tell the tale today. It is worth it. The misery of the last year and darkness and doom was extremely tough on my being. There was a point in time when I gave up. Actually multiple times I gave up. It was no possible.
What changed? I don't know what kept me alive- but I know it was divine intervention. Faith in something/someone kept me going. Some force. Universe. Maybe?
Look- I deserve this. Now. I thank every ounce of energy that kept me going thru the last year. In every single way possible. I cant be more grateful.
What's changed in the new year? I am more confident. I feel more real and less fake. I don't posture that much anymore. I am more aware of what's going on within me. I am more disciplined and I feel the trying times has made me feel more ready to be an adult. I'd like to think it is an adulting process.
And hence, I am in the game.
Yes- that's how life works. When you are fully out of something- choose to not play a certain game, you then make headway in your mind to start another game.
You MUST choose to do this. I have always been vocal about making choices that snap you out of your comfort zone. ALWAYS.
That's the only and ONLY way to evolve and become a better version of yourself.
Esp. when you know you are adding entropy to your process.
Day of disaster. I think what travel teaches you is resilience and patience if not anything else. Yesterday was an example of it. I couldn't not do anything about it. So yea- an example of how you don't really control anything including your schedule- esp your schedule.
So what do you do on those days? Just give up and surrender with joy. It's a choice you make. COming back to the facts of yesterday- I had a trip booked on Viator (thoo thoo). I had a pick up from my hotel at Bratislava and the idea was to hit the road for a 2.5 hr drive to Budapest and Budapest local sight seeing. The trip was supposed to begin at 8 am. So far with me? Not complex. Right? And then I had a flight from Budapest to Munich at 5 PM.
Now... let's get to feelings. Oh, before that, Viator stood me up. And I ran to the bus stop to book a bus ticket. The bus was at 10 am. I went to the bus stop at a chilling weather (-1 C) by 9 am to ensure I am not missing the bus by tempting fate. It's cool right? We are smart peoples, so we don't want to lose out on the goal- which is to visit Budapest.
Bus is on platform 11. I am at platform 11 am. 10.05- no sign of the bus and the tracker says it already left the station. Again GASP! WTF is going on! Now- it's no more the fear of missing the sights at Budapest. Reality is hitting. Will I be able to make it to the flight?
A random guy who was patiently waiting for me at this point, walks up to me super confused about bus. So we both walk up to the customer service at the bus stand to enquire, only to realize that they confirmed the reality on the tracker. What next? The next bus was not going to allow me to make it to Budapest on time. We decided to train it. Now- a small challenge. This guy coming with me. What to make of it? He looked genuinely stuck with the same problem as I am. But how do you trust a person in a foreign land and a stranger at that? Could have been anything. Sweet fellow he turned out though. We decided to Uber to the station and I booked the cab- again a false sense of lull that I have the control. :-) But well- I just took a chance and my gut said it was OK. I decided to trust the universe to keep my back. Now- too many "trusts".
We had a train at 12 noon reaching Budapest at 12.30 PM. We got a ticket. Thankfully, I got on the train and we started talking- this guy- let's call him Alex. He is French. Sweet chap. Young guy backpacking around Europe because he finished his Masters. Got off the train. And I had to tempt fate.
I decided to tour around Budapest. Yea- you heard me right. I had a flight to Munich at 5 PM. At 2.45 PM, I decided to tour Budapest. I got into a hop on/hop off and saw the city in 45 min. What a bloody beautiful city- beats Edinburgh too. Easily one of the most beautiful cities in this world (from all the countries I visited so far).
I clicked as many pictures as I could making a mental note that I am coming back. It deserves a lot of my time (as haughty as that might sound). :-)
So racing against time and traffic jams, I ended up at the airport with all my luggage (remember I had more than 35 Kg given I was travelling international) at 4.35 PM for 5 PM flight.
If there was one happy ending (not 'that' one you perv!), it was that the universe decided to shower me with it's blessing. Super grateful. The flight got delayed by 15 min putting me on that damn plane to Munich.
And Munich- here I come!
