Birthdays..

 I hate them. I dont want to remember them. Not just mine- but also few others'. 

I dont want them. Yea- I said it.

I lost interest in my life. It feels like it is not my life. Like someone else in living in it. 

I want to fight and cry with vengeance. I want to scream. I want to kill. I have rage.

I need attention. I need love. I need care. I need affection. I need people to forget my mistakes. I need unconditional acceptance of who I am.

Today- I am in a strange space. I have nothing. No one. Not even my shadow that disappears in the darkness.