Shadows dancing in the dark.

 I pretty much have no visitors on mt page. As in I dont know if there are any- and i know it's very few. Does it matter?? Not really. GIven the way I write, it really is inconsequential. 

What do I miss? I feel wistful almost every single day about things I miss. Knowing it is not right to lament about things that I dont have. 

I do have a lot of good things going for me. And yet- I feel I miss a lot of things.

Here goes:

1. I miss my place in this world. A place. 

2. I miss being myself. I dont know who I am. I want to know more about who I am.

3. I miss giggles. Laughter. Joy. 

4. I really really miss being spontaneous.

With so many friends around me, I miss a companion in this journey. I wish my shadow was with me during darkness.

I wish I could lean on. I wish I could come home and say "honey, I am home". 

I wish there was a name to that "honey". I wish there were a face. I wish there were a person. For me. With me. Me.