Gayathri...

 I do hope one day- you read all this- my dearest daughter. 

You'd know the ups and downs of amma's life. I hope you would understand some of her behavioral patterns better.

Is this to evade an apology for bad behavior? Heck no. Sometimes amma is terrible at explaining things.

She writes them so you can read them at your leisure one day to understand her context. 

On that day you read- if you do- pls remember that there were many beautiful things she wanted to share many times but she held back many times.

You see- amma lacks a lot of courage. In her own way- she really loves you to moon and back.

Grow up soon- so you read all of this.